ALIVE – Episode 26
September 11th, 2009
Laugh, cry, love and give a damn!
Tags: American Beauty, Bittersweet Life, Clint Eastwood, Gran Torino, Jean Reno, Kevin Spacey, Lee Byung Hun, Leon, Natalie Portman, Sam Mendes
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Stuff mentioned in this episode:
- American Beauty, Bittersweet Life, Clint Eastwood, Gran Torino, Jean Reno, Kevin Spacey, Lee Byung Hun, Leon, Natalie Portman, Sam Mendes
I am going to try to write and not to cry. I feel while still alive dead, but I can cry means that even I am alive and that is good.
The today chapter strikes much to me. “American Beauty”, “Leon”… together to “Seven”, “Requiem for a dream”, “Psycho”, “Folling down” and “Match point” are my favorite films. It happens all night speaking with a old actress yesterday over the subject this of the difference between a simple existence and to live. It is a subject in which constantly fodder and I don’t let me sleep. At the outset actress denied me to see because wise that was going to ask to me for the film that we making filming and the certain thing is that if I want to finish it, I do not have desire to film, I do not have desire to live, is the first time in the life in which I feel in that end. The first time that I discover that the art maximum does not reach to satiate that emptiness in my interior, with creating it does not reach and until recently it thought that if. Something of air even encounter in my small dolls, luckyly, but an air vitiated that is related much childhood and to my dark desires but and either if it does to me well.
I need air… I feel that I am going to die.
I think Always that the cinema must shaked, let you staggering, is I not necessarily generate that it is, drama. “American beauty” is an excellent example of it. If, this film is a drama, a shining drama, but it has much irony and a very good dye of comedy, also bittersweet like a hamburger of Mc Donalds. As much “American bauty” as “Folling down” for instance, leaves in the open of a poetic way those two faces of the life generally, that face so feared that nobody wants to see, the one of not living, the one to see spend the days while still alive dead, and I believe that whichever better it can show it a film, a whichever film but it can turn into poetry as overwhelming feelings as the excrement, but cinematographic it is.
The take of the film “Leon” with Leon and Matilda in the bed that I was named the other episode, is the exasperating feeling but of this. That necessity of Leon to take roots on the Earth and power to live.
As I said yesterday to the actress, you prune to have everything, you prune maked professionally, you prune to be God, you prune to make the work artistic but great summit of the humanity, but if you haven’t love, you are nothing, these emptiness on the inside if the only one thing that you have.
Excuseme people, until here arrive, I can`t continue writing now.
Too much pain.
Brilliant episode, the best.
Congratulations!
J.
Voy a intentar escribir y no llorar. Me siento muerta en vida, pero si puedo llorar quiere decir que aun estoy viva y eso es bueno.
El capitulo de hoy me golpea mucho. “American Beauty”, “Leon”… son junto a “Seven”, “Requiem por un sueño”, “Psicosis”, “Folling down”y “Match point” mis peliculas favoritas. Ayer pase toda la noche hablando con una actriz anciana sobre el tema este de la diferencia entre una simple existencia y vivir. Es un tema en el que constantemente pienso y no me deja dormir. Al principio me negaba ver a la actriz porque sabia que me iba a preguntar por la pelicula que estabamos filmando y lo cierto es que no se si quiero terminarla, no tengo ganas de filmar, no tengo ganas de vivir, es la primera vez en la vida en que me siento en ese extremo. La primera vez que descubro que el arte maximo no alcanza para saciar ese vacio en mi interior, con crear no alcanza y hasta hace poco pensaba que si. Algo de aire aun encuentro en mis pequeñas Dolls, afortunadamente, pero un aire viciado que se relacionan mucho a mi infancia y a mis deseos mas oscuros y tampoco se si me hace bien.
Necesito aire… Siento que voy a morir.
Siempre pense que el cine debe sacudirte, dejarte tambaleando, sea el genero que sea, no necesariamente drama. “American beauty” es un excelente ejemplo de ello. Si, esta pelicula es un drama, un brillante drama, pero tiene mucha ironia y un tinte de comedia muy buenos tambien, agridulce como una hamburguesa de Mc Donalds. Tanto “American bauty” como “Folling down” por citar un ejemplo, dejan al descubierto de una manera poetica esa dos caras de la vida en general, esa cara tan temida que nadie quiere ver, la del no vivir, la de ver pasar los dias muerto en vida, y creo que cuanto mejor pueda mostrarlo una pelicula, cuanto una pelicula mas pueda convertir en poesia sentimientos tan abrumadores como la mierda, mas cinematografica es.
La toma de la pelicula “Leon” de Leon con Matilda en la cama que habia nombrado la otra vez, es el sentimiento mas desesperante de esto. Esa necesidad de Leon de echar raices sobre la tierra y poder vivir.
Como le dije ayer a la actriz, podes tener todo, podes realizarte profesionalmente, podes ser Dios, podes hacer la obra cumbre artistica mas grande de la humanidad, pero si no tenes amor, si no estas enamorado, estas vacio por dentro.
Perdonenmen, hasta aca llego, no puedo mas. Un nudo de angustia anudado en la garganta.
Genial episodio, el mejor hasta la fecha.
Sigan asi. Los felicito.
J.
yeah! againa very good well organised episode! i like the choices of movies for your theme. and as i saw this episode i thought to myself that i see similarities between the characters and me.
the monotone life, the unmotivated way of living, more or less just breathing and not really knowing what for…kinda sounds to harsh…i am not suicidal or anything but yeah, kinda like that.
anyways, the episode made me think of myself and i see how i am desperately looking for a reason to live or die for. i go to train martial arts, i go to the movie as often s i can, i go out whenever i can, i meet as many people as i can, always looking for the distraction that does not make you think of yourself.
and then there comes a woman and she blasts you away. you fall in love and all you care about is ti maintain the love and do everything for her.
TAAADAAAAA!!! there is the sense in life…
the main message is tomas, this episode made me think of myself and my situation! and i don’t wanna go that far to say that your epoisode tells me to change things and reload but it encourages me to do so.
I will say, if it you make think it is goog, the things like the movies, like the persons, like the words that make you think is good, is the finaly of the art, a movie that make you the mind, is a open book at the eternity like this episode.
The escene of the bag in American beauty is this, but, isn’t my favourite, the escene that lets you remember me something similiar, great escene is the escene final in the car with de boys and girls in the movie “Virgin suicides”, I can’t see in the internet only find the trailer.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uZ6cvgIGfH4&feature=related
@Juli: i felt like i know your pain.. i don’t know you personally Juli but how i wish i could talk to you and uplift you by giving strength in words…i never mastered giving advices but at least i could give one..
Take a deep breath, no matter how dark (suffering)your life is there’s still a light awaits you.
cheer up!!!!
@ibby: by reading your sentiments,it’s kinda your having a life crises so to speak…And your good at doing things by diverting your attention into something, well great job! At least you have this kind of positive attitude towards life – and this life is worth living for….
Me also i have some issues to be resolved but i deal my life with not much of a big deal, i rather have a pedicure and polish it with the french tip on top and that gives me happiness already…Actually, i’m more of like in Juli’s suffering way back many years and slightly of ibby’s complex life …
‘Things happen for a reason,you might not why it had to be that way but someday you’ll understand why’….
“things Happen for a reason,you might not know why it had to be that way but someday you’ll understand why”….
@athenayesha: Not because, I cannot be to clear to me of the emptiness that exists in the present art. It is as if it could absorb the emptiness around existing, since naci, like being born with karma or a gift, like feeling to have been born outside age, not to belong to any place. Sometimes I believe that fodder too much, but other times I believe that all will be to stop to us but, to watch ours around and to think truly where we are stopped and that we are truly doing, that we felt.
@athenayesha: No se porque, no puedo deprenderme del vacio que existe en el arte actual. Es como si pudiera absorver el vacio existente a mi alrededor, desde que naci, como nacer con un karma o con un don, como sentir haber nacido fuera de epoca, no pertenecer a ningun lugar. A veces creo que pienso demasiado, pero otras veces creo que todos deberiamos detenernos mas, mirar a nuestro alrededor y pensar verdaderamente donde estamos parados y que estamos verdaderamente haciendo, que sentimos.
@athenayesha: I so beautiful to live, and so beautiful to die too.
@juli: Yeah that’s true its beautiful to live when you inspired by the people around, you can never think of dying…
@athenayesha: You are alright
Thanks for your words.
@juli: thank you also Juli…
@athenayesha: Thanks to you!